“Class, over the weekend your homework will be to read chapters 7 and 8,” “ughhhh reading again! This book sucks!” Sound familiar? Growing up, I wouldn’t even be able to tell you how many times I have heard some version of this same scenario: teacher gives a reading assignment and students whine and moan about how much they hate reading and/or how much they dislike the book. The fact is most students no longer find enjoyment in reading books assigned to them in school. And after graduating from high school, that has too become my attitude towards books and reading. Though it was once considered one of my favorite hobbies, reading to me has now become something to dread.
Over the course of my life my view of reading has changed to become one very similar to the way Birkerts perceives his father’s perception of reading. “Reading is something you do because it has been assigned in school, or because all other options have been exhausted—no more chores to do, all other games and activities put away.” (Birkerts, 38) If I had my way, this is not the way I would feel towards reading because I think it is an important quality of our education. Reading can teach us things that we couldn’t learn anywhere else. But because my view of reading has changed over my life, I do no longer enjoy reading like I once did.
My love for reading started out in 1st grade. Upon my arrival to 1st grade, my mom expressed her concern with my teacher that I had not really picked up on reading in kindergarten and would need help before catching up to the level that other students in my class were on. When I got to 1st grade I felt behind and had the feeling that everyone else could do so much more than me. Though with the help of my teacher, Mrs. Jackson, I was able to catch up with the class and finally start reading “chapter books”. Mrs. Jackson would set me aside with a small group of students who also had trouble reading. Getting the personal attention and help, I was able to progress to the point where I would need to be for my class. This allowed to me to see that it was okay because there were people at all levels of reading. Some were better than me, but some were even worse! Being able to take reading one step at a time or one page at a time, allowed me to fall in love with reading and not want to stop!
Writing this paper, thinking about all the countless memories I had while reading as a child- Scholastic Book Fairs, The Magic Tree House Series, reading out under our tree in the backyard- I feel remorse that I no longer have these same opinions as a freshman at college. This is the time of my life where I feel like reading remains one of the most important things I can be doing to ensure that I get the most out of my education. Today alone I have already spent an hour reading “American Jezebel” for my U.S. History class. And the entire hour I spent thinking how “I wish this was over “, or how “I was bored out of my mind”. Why can’t I enjoy reading like I used to?
My opinion of reading started to change in middle school when we started having “assigned readings”. Reading books like “Of Mice and Men” and “Island of the Blue Dolphins”, I started to lose my passion for books. Growing up, I could be considered very stubborn so I guess when I was reading on my own, I was doing it because I wanted too. So when the combination that 1- they were making us read these books and 2- I wasn’t really interested in the subject matter of these books, came together, my interest in reading started fading away.
The reason I changed my stance about reading is the fact the reading became a requirement. At the age of 12 or 13 when you are starting to get reading assignments, you are at the age when you don’t want to do anything anyone tells you. At this age your first thought when someone tells you to do something is hell no, and how can I get out of this! Maybe if schools started assigning more “literary” type books at a younger age, maybe 10 or 11, kids would be more accustomed to reading books like this. When reading became something that I now had to do, it made me start liking it less and less. I felt the books were getting harder and harder, and for someone who was not a strong reader to begin with I had trouble comprehending the new “assigned” books and this turned into hatred of reading all-together.
I think I did myself a disservice in middle school and ended up creating a bad habit that carried me through till present day, this being the fact that I refused to get into the book that we were assigned to read. Looking back now, the books assigned in middle school probably were not as horrible as I made them seem and maybe if I had tried becoming involved in the books, the way I view books today could have been changed.
Though it may come across that I have no interest in books anymore, that is not true. When I find a book that I can get into and enjoy, I can get caught up into the book for hours! One of my favorite things to do in the summer is lay out on the beach with a book. Though the books that I am interested in such as Twilight and Harry Potter, are not of “literary merit” so are not seen as “academic books” and are of no use in our teacher’s eyes. I think it’s a shame that schools haven’t found a way to incorporate books that students have more interest for in the classroom setting. If then were able to do this and allow more students to connect with books, maybe more students could learn they actually could enjoy reading if it was a book they could relate to.
Without trying to contradict myself too much, I can completely understand the feeling people have when they fall in love with a book. When I do find a book I like, though most of the time they are not academic books, some of the time they are. One of my favorite and most memorable books that I read in high school was Night by Elie Wiesel. A book about the hardships Elie had to go through while being thrown in a World War 2 concentration camp. This is one instance where I completely connected with an assigned reading. I enjoyed every assignment that we had to complete along with this book. It makes me think hey! If I can enjoy doing my homework now why can’t I connect with more books and enjoy my work all the time.
Though I may not always agree with them, there are people that would argue that no matter what the reason they are reading a book-assigned or chosen, they can find a way to indulge in it. One of my good friends is an example of this type of person. She remains a very enthusiastic reader, no matter if she chooses the book or if it was the book assigned to us in our English class. There have been numerous times when I envy her outlook towards reading. Her grades in past English classes have been reflective upon the fact that she has enjoyed doing the assignment. So when she reads she gets more out of the book and can translate that to better grades on tests. Versus my grades, which have all been pretty average in my past English classes that could be reflective upon the fact that I do not take pleasure in most assignments and have a harder time pushing through the work.
Other people may argue the fact that books were still assigned in elementary school and the beginning of middle school so what’s the difference between those assignments and the assignments that I talk about now? To me, the difference was the types of book that were being assigned. In elementary school, they kept the fact in mind that if kids were not attracted by the books they choose, they would turn the other way quickly. So when they sprang these more challenging books towards us at the middle/end of middle school, it was like reading became a whole new factor. Also in elementary school, or at least the school I went to, most reading assignments were “Read for 15 minutes a night, the book of your choice”. So I became used to the idea that we were able to pick our own books. In the long run, this understanding ended up hurting me.
The fact that I do not enjoy reading now does not mean that this feeling will stand forever. I am hoping my stance on the argument that reading for me cannot be enjoyed if it is assigned will someday change. And hopefully it does so while in college. From growing up loving books, to the present tense where I am at the point where I almost hate books, you could definitely say my view of reading has changed. The main focus of this change being the fact the reading became a requirement and no longer a hobby that I enjoyed.
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